Apabila aku melihat cermin, aku dapat melihat dengan jelas ciri-ciri muka aku. Hidung aku mancung, kulit aku cerah, rambut aku bewarna cokelat gelap. Apabila aku menulis, aku perasan yang aku lebih selesa menulis dalam Bahasa Inggeris. Apabila aku berbual dengan rakan-rakanku, perbualan aku akan diselang-seli dengan Bahasa Malaysia dan Bahasa Inggeris.
Apabila aku menonton wayang, aku perasan yang kebanyakan filem yang ditonton aku adalah filem berbahasa Inggeris. Apabila aku membeli CD lagu, aku perasan kebanyakan CD yang aku beli adalah CD band-band dari luar negara.
Aku melihat di sekeliling aku. Aku perasan yang bukan aku seorang sahaja yang menjalani kehidupan seharian seperti ini. Bukan aku seorang sahaja yang makin melupakan asal-usul diri aku.
Tetapi apabila aku fikir balik, aku tidak setuju dengan diri aku sendiri. Aku bukan Melayu yang lupa diri. Aku hanya seorang Melayu yang menerima adat dan bahasa kaum lain sebagai sebahagian dari diri aku.
Aku sedih apabila aku melihat kaum-kaum di negara aku bergaduh sesama sendiri. Aku tidak salahkan sesiapa dalam hal ini. Bukan semua orang sempurna. Aku seorang Melayu yang bangga akan keturunan aku, tetapi aku tidak pernah, tidak akan dan tidak mungkin menganggap diri aku sebagai tuan di negara aku sendiri kerana negara ini bukan aku yang punya. Negara ini bukan kaum aku yang punya.
Negara ini milik seluruh rakyat Malaysia.
Tetapi ini tidak bermakna aku akan mengetepikan kaum aku sendiri. Kelak apabila aku sudah berjaya dan Insyallah kaya raya, akan aku gunakan harta bendaku, tenaga dan kudratku untuk memastikan kaum aku berdiri sama tinggi, duduk sama rendah dengan kaum-kaum lain di negara ini. Ini janjiku.
Orang Melayu bukan kaum yang lemah. Orang Melayu dahulu merupakan pahlawan, satria gagah perkasa yang menakluk wilayah-wilayah di Nusantara ini untuk menubuhkan Kesultanan Melayu Melaka.
Takkan Melayu hilang di dunia. Ya Hang Tuah, benar kata-katamu itu. Tetapi apa gunanya kewujudan kita jika kita hanya mampu melihat orang lain menjadi tuan si hamba.
Mar 28, 2011
Feb 3, 2011
I have the need, the need, for me to be awesome.
2010 went by without much hype. I promised myself about a year ago that 2010 was going to be the year I made something of myself. That did not happen. I'm already 23. 9 out of 10 people will say that 23 is still a very young age. My future is still in front of me. Well to those 9 out of 10 people, I think you are wrong.
Kurt Cobain became world famous, became the voice of a generation, sold millions of records worldwide and died of a self inflicted gunshot wound to the head. All that before reaching the age of 28. He died when he was 27 years old, 17 years ago.
If I want to be awesome and turn my life around from being practically nothing to something, this is the time.
I have absolutely no idea how I'm going to be awesome. I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to be awesome at but I do know one thing, I don't want to be Mr.Nobody.
In the wise words of Eminem, success is my only motherfucking option, failure's not.
Kurt Cobain became world famous, became the voice of a generation, sold millions of records worldwide and died of a self inflicted gunshot wound to the head. All that before reaching the age of 28. He died when he was 27 years old, 17 years ago.
If I want to be awesome and turn my life around from being practically nothing to something, this is the time.
I have absolutely no idea how I'm going to be awesome. I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to be awesome at but I do know one thing, I don't want to be Mr.Nobody.
In the wise words of Eminem, success is my only motherfucking option, failure's not.
Jan 14, 2011
Why guys should go to prom night naked.
I was at the foodcourt near my apartment, sitting alone while waiting for my take-away fried rice. I took out my phone and I went online. I signed into my twitter account and read the time line...and then I saw it.
"Law night is near, what should I wear" or something along that line.
It was posted by a girl. That particular tweet got me thinking. Girls have so many options. Here's a list of what they could wear to Law Night 2011:
1. Prom Dress
2. Evening Gown
3.Gown
4.Cocktail Dress
5.Homecoming Dress
6.Formal Dress
7.Maxi Dress
8.Sun Dress
9. Mini Skirt (Drools)
10. Sheath Dress
11.Baju Kebaya
12.Baju Kurung
13.Cheongsam
Now, compare that with what guys would wear.
1. Pants
2. Shirt
Pants and shirt...and that's about it. Perhaps one could dress up a bit more by wearing a vest or a blazer on top of their shirts but basically, its pants and shirt. The girls will have at least 13 types of dresses to wear for our annual law night. There will be no two girls wearing the the same dress on that night. But believe you me, there will be at least 150 guys with the same shit outfit comprising of....you guessed it:
Pants and Shirt.
So if you are a guy who takes pride in TRYING to be as individualistic as possible, perhaps you should go to law night naked....because that's the only way you can be sure you'll "dress up" a bit differently from the other 150 guys that night.
Birthday...Suit Up!
"Law night is near, what should I wear" or something along that line.
It was posted by a girl. That particular tweet got me thinking. Girls have so many options. Here's a list of what they could wear to Law Night 2011:
1. Prom Dress
2. Evening Gown
3.Gown
4.Cocktail Dress
5.Homecoming Dress
6.Formal Dress
7.Maxi Dress
8.Sun Dress
9. Mini Skirt (Drools)
10. Sheath Dress
11.Baju Kebaya
12.Baju Kurung
13.Cheongsam
Now, compare that with what guys would wear.
1. Pants
2. Shirt
Pants and shirt...and that's about it. Perhaps one could dress up a bit more by wearing a vest or a blazer on top of their shirts but basically, its pants and shirt. The girls will have at least 13 types of dresses to wear for our annual law night. There will be no two girls wearing the the same dress on that night. But believe you me, there will be at least 150 guys with the same shit outfit comprising of....you guessed it:
Pants and Shirt.
So if you are a guy who takes pride in TRYING to be as individualistic as possible, perhaps you should go to law night naked....because that's the only way you can be sure you'll "dress up" a bit differently from the other 150 guys that night.
Birthday...Suit Up!
Dec 23, 2010
I am a religious person so I reserve the right to humiliate you in public.
I am a religious person so I reserve the right to humiliate you in public. There's something wrong with that sentence. I see an ounce of irony. You are religious, but you humiliate people in public so that they would return to the path of righteousness.
The government's effort to curb vice and immoral activities in Malaysia is worthy of recognition. Everyday I hear stories of religious officers busting sex-parties, raiding cheap hotels and rented flats in order to locate and prosecute Muslims who commit the sin of khalwat ie close proximity between a guy and a girl that may lead to a sexual escapade and zina ie fornication. Oh lets not forget booze parties where young so called Muslim youths get drunk..and then have sex.
Ah yes, the noble effort of a select group of individuals who are, judging by the kopiah on their head, religious and of high moral, to save the youths of today from the ways of Satan.
The reason of my ranting? A few days ago, a friend showed me a video that was allegedly taken during an anti-vice raid on a Muslim couple accused of khalwat. Number one, why was a video recording made? Number two, why was the woman not given a chance to cover herself up properly and instead told to cover herself with the thin bed-sheet she was sitting on. Number three why was the male anti-vice raiders (I'm not sure whether the raiders were government officers or just a group of kampung people conducting their own self-sanctioned raid) interviewing the girl in the room? Why wasn't a female "room raider" present?
Don't get me wrong. I'm all for the religious raids because I truly believe that they are needed to curb immoral activities among the youths of today but my god why oh why do you need to be so rude to all the alleged wrongdoers?
You want to guide people to the path of righteousness. You want to set a good example for them to follow. You want to rehabilitate them. So why are you humiliating them?
In all honesty, what bugs me the most is not the fact that they weren't nice to the sinners.What bugs me the most is that they are painting a wrong image of Islam. What would non-Muslims think when they see supposedly religious high-moral individuals treating a half naked girl like an animal and interviewing her under bright lights on a bed, half naked.
Instead of upholding the purity of Islam, these so called warriors of religion are making Islam look like a religion of hate, a religion that's based on fear, not love.
The sinners made a mistake, yes. They are human. That's what humans do. They make mistakes. Your job is to GUIDE them back to the path of righteousness, not to HUMILIATE and SCARE THE LIVING SHIT out of them. Guide with love, the result will be long and the transformation would be pure and sincere. You guide with fear, the moment you die, they will go back to their old ways because guess what, their transformation was made out of fear NOT FAITH. I hate it when I hear non-Muslims talk about how Islam is a religion based on fear and not through pure faith.
A son who obeys his father because of his father's beatings will forget about the man as soon as he dies and will never pray for him nor will he visit his father's grave. A son who obeys his father because of his father's love, will continue to cherish his father, long after his death, and will pray for him and visit his father's grave for as long as he live. I truly believe in that.
Yes, you are a religious person, a man of god but you do not have the right to humiliate people in public. Are you guaranteed heaven? Of course not. So stop acting like you are.
The government's effort to curb vice and immoral activities in Malaysia is worthy of recognition. Everyday I hear stories of religious officers busting sex-parties, raiding cheap hotels and rented flats in order to locate and prosecute Muslims who commit the sin of khalwat ie close proximity between a guy and a girl that may lead to a sexual escapade and zina ie fornication. Oh lets not forget booze parties where young so called Muslim youths get drunk..and then have sex.
Ah yes, the noble effort of a select group of individuals who are, judging by the kopiah on their head, religious and of high moral, to save the youths of today from the ways of Satan.
The reason of my ranting? A few days ago, a friend showed me a video that was allegedly taken during an anti-vice raid on a Muslim couple accused of khalwat. Number one, why was a video recording made? Number two, why was the woman not given a chance to cover herself up properly and instead told to cover herself with the thin bed-sheet she was sitting on. Number three why was the male anti-vice raiders (I'm not sure whether the raiders were government officers or just a group of kampung people conducting their own self-sanctioned raid) interviewing the girl in the room? Why wasn't a female "room raider" present?
Don't get me wrong. I'm all for the religious raids because I truly believe that they are needed to curb immoral activities among the youths of today but my god why oh why do you need to be so rude to all the alleged wrongdoers?
You want to guide people to the path of righteousness. You want to set a good example for them to follow. You want to rehabilitate them. So why are you humiliating them?
In all honesty, what bugs me the most is not the fact that they weren't nice to the sinners.What bugs me the most is that they are painting a wrong image of Islam. What would non-Muslims think when they see supposedly religious high-moral individuals treating a half naked girl like an animal and interviewing her under bright lights on a bed, half naked.
Instead of upholding the purity of Islam, these so called warriors of religion are making Islam look like a religion of hate, a religion that's based on fear, not love.
The sinners made a mistake, yes. They are human. That's what humans do. They make mistakes. Your job is to GUIDE them back to the path of righteousness, not to HUMILIATE and SCARE THE LIVING SHIT out of them. Guide with love, the result will be long and the transformation would be pure and sincere. You guide with fear, the moment you die, they will go back to their old ways because guess what, their transformation was made out of fear NOT FAITH. I hate it when I hear non-Muslims talk about how Islam is a religion based on fear and not through pure faith.
A son who obeys his father because of his father's beatings will forget about the man as soon as he dies and will never pray for him nor will he visit his father's grave. A son who obeys his father because of his father's love, will continue to cherish his father, long after his death, and will pray for him and visit his father's grave for as long as he live. I truly believe in that.
Yes, you are a religious person, a man of god but you do not have the right to humiliate people in public. Are you guaranteed heaven? Of course not. So stop acting like you are.
Dec 7, 2010
Why gay guys used to scare the living shit out of me.
No I am not gay, period.
I used to distance myself from gay guys. I never really had any problem with them, its just that I've never felt comfortable being near them. Here's why:
1. Gay guy says hye
My head says: Shit, he loves me.
2. Gay guy being nice to me.
My head says: Shit, he wants me.
3. Gay guy invites me for a cup of coffee.
My head says: Shit, he's going to spike my drink and take me home.
I was 15 when I had my first encounter with a gay dude. He was my schoolmate, I was the new kid in school. This particular gay dude kept on harassing me, verbally mind you. Truth be told, I wasn't just annoyed, I was scared too. It's weird. Why would I be scared of a dude who probably had a pair of hidden fake boobs? He talks walks and acts like a girl but I still get scared shitless if I bumped into him at some corridor, alone.
Three years later, I entered University and as fate would have it, one of my housemates was of course, as if it was a sick joke, gay. He cannot be anymore gayer. He wore bright colored clothing and had multi-colored underwear. I know this because he hung his laundry at our common drying area.
I was of course, uncomfortable. After a while, I asked him, whether he liked staying with us. I reckoned he did because we're a goodlooking bunch (hahahahahha!). He said he did, so I proceeded to ask him an even more daring question:
"Do you feel anything seeing us shirtless and stuff, like how a guy would feel when he sees a girl topless?"
The sick bastard laughed and said:
"Do you honestly think I'm into you? Please, you are so not my type, and you're not goodlooking enough"
Hambik kau Faisal, kena sebijik.
Ahhhh...So I thought to myself, gay guys have types too...like us straight guys...and here I am thinking that gay guys like ALL men.
So then I told myself, Faisal, you self obsessed wank, When a gay dude says hye, he probably means "Hye" and when he asks you out for a cup of coffee, he probably wants to hang out and chill with you over a cup of coffee. He doesn't want to spike your drink and take you home to have his way with you.
That was 5 years ago. Now I have no problems being friends with gay guys. They are actually an interesting lot to be with and talk to.
I pride myself for not being a racist or a sexist. I pride myself for not judging a book by its cover. So why the hell should I discriminate against a group of people just because they happen to prefer broad shoulders and furry chests over a curvy body and ruby red lips?
I know there's always the religious issue but believe me, non of us, and I mean non of us, is qualified to judge another human being. It is not our place. So before any of you pass judgement, look at yourself in the mirror and ask yourself, am I guaranteed paradise? Am I a hundred percent sure I'm going to heaven? If the answer is (and it will be) no, than in my opinion, you should concentrate on saving your own place in heaven and let god deal with this lot.
I used to distance myself from gay guys. I never really had any problem with them, its just that I've never felt comfortable being near them. Here's why:
1. Gay guy says hye
My head says: Shit, he loves me.
2. Gay guy being nice to me.
My head says: Shit, he wants me.
3. Gay guy invites me for a cup of coffee.
My head says: Shit, he's going to spike my drink and take me home.
I was 15 when I had my first encounter with a gay dude. He was my schoolmate, I was the new kid in school. This particular gay dude kept on harassing me, verbally mind you. Truth be told, I wasn't just annoyed, I was scared too. It's weird. Why would I be scared of a dude who probably had a pair of hidden fake boobs? He talks walks and acts like a girl but I still get scared shitless if I bumped into him at some corridor, alone.
Three years later, I entered University and as fate would have it, one of my housemates was of course, as if it was a sick joke, gay. He cannot be anymore gayer. He wore bright colored clothing and had multi-colored underwear. I know this because he hung his laundry at our common drying area.
I was of course, uncomfortable. After a while, I asked him, whether he liked staying with us. I reckoned he did because we're a goodlooking bunch (hahahahahha!). He said he did, so I proceeded to ask him an even more daring question:
"Do you feel anything seeing us shirtless and stuff, like how a guy would feel when he sees a girl topless?"
The sick bastard laughed and said:
"Do you honestly think I'm into you? Please, you are so not my type, and you're not goodlooking enough"
Hambik kau Faisal, kena sebijik.
Ahhhh...So I thought to myself, gay guys have types too...like us straight guys...and here I am thinking that gay guys like ALL men.
So then I told myself, Faisal, you self obsessed wank, When a gay dude says hye, he probably means "Hye" and when he asks you out for a cup of coffee, he probably wants to hang out and chill with you over a cup of coffee. He doesn't want to spike your drink and take you home to have his way with you.
That was 5 years ago. Now I have no problems being friends with gay guys. They are actually an interesting lot to be with and talk to.
I pride myself for not being a racist or a sexist. I pride myself for not judging a book by its cover. So why the hell should I discriminate against a group of people just because they happen to prefer broad shoulders and furry chests over a curvy body and ruby red lips?
I know there's always the religious issue but believe me, non of us, and I mean non of us, is qualified to judge another human being. It is not our place. So before any of you pass judgement, look at yourself in the mirror and ask yourself, am I guaranteed paradise? Am I a hundred percent sure I'm going to heaven? If the answer is (and it will be) no, than in my opinion, you should concentrate on saving your own place in heaven and let god deal with this lot.
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