Feb 3, 2011

I have the need, the need, for me to be awesome.

2010 went by without much hype. I promised myself about a year ago that 2010 was going to be the year I made something of myself. That did not happen. I'm already 23. 9 out of 10 people will say that 23 is still a very young age. My future is still in front of me. Well to those 9 out of 10 people, I think you are wrong.

Kurt Cobain became world famous, became the voice of a generation, sold millions of records worldwide and died of a self inflicted gunshot wound to the head. All that before reaching the age of 28. He died when he was 27 years old, 17 years ago.

If I want to be awesome and turn my life around from being practically nothing to something, this is the time.

I have absolutely no idea how I'm going to be awesome. I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to be awesome at but I do know one thing, I don't want to be Mr.Nobody.

In the wise words of Eminem, success is my only motherfucking option, failure's not.


  1. same dilemma here :( feel suffocated! going to be 23 too.....haihhh..

  2. hey u! :)
    sigh yeah....sokay, lets make 2011 awesome!!! we can do it! haha. first round of awesomeness,acing our upcoming finals! :D

  3. Maybe you're not meant to be awesome because you're amazing? Haha. Take care :)

  4. Interesting post, because I feel the same. And its actually worse for me, because I'm 21. I like the Kurt cobain comparison because I do the same & compare my life to others who have influenced. Lady Gaga, although I dislike, is only 23 years old & conquered the music charts. Natalie portman at my age was mastering her Jedi techniques for the star wars movies, & now has the capability of retiring since she's accomplished so much.
    But here I make my point. Success is like a stock, and there's rises and falls and peaks, but the peak occurs on a time of its own, so everyones life is flowing in a path of its own. & so with persistence and patience comes success, after all success is definitely not fulfilled overnight.
    And another thing. If you want to analyze Kurt Cobain's "stock of success" consider calculating his life span compared to his accomplishments. Kurts life spanned 28 yrs, so putting that into a ratio, he actually didnt reach success by 21, had he lived a full life, that 21 would indeed be 60 years old. (Using 80 years to define a full life.) Puts it in a comforting perspective don't you think? (Did I mention I want to be a lawyer too?!)