I was only into my 2nd year of law school, had no girlfriend and no car. All I had was my guitar which I bought using the money I earned working as a cashier at Parkson Grand after SPM.
As a 21 year old dweeb, I saw me working in a huge firm with good pay and a side business that was making hundreds of thousands per year. I saw me as, this is rather embarrassing, a 25 year old multimillionaire driving a Ferrari.
Well, 4 years passed since and I am now 25.
My life isn't actually hell. I work in a sizable law firm and I earn what most 1st year lawyers earn but......I am nothing what the 21 year old me thought I'd be when I reached 25. To make matters worse, I don't even know whether practicing is for me or not. I have become disillusioned thanks to the long working hours, high stress rate and in my opinion low wages that does not commensurate with the amount of hours spent working.
So in a nutshell 1 of my 2 dreams is slowly becoming a nightmare.
It looks like I wont enjoy practicing after all.
Now I'm left with one and that is to become rich which actually puts me in a catch 22 situation because If I were to keep on chasing dream #1......then there is very little hope of ever achieving dream #2.
So now I am in between a rock and a hard place.
At 21 I envisioned a 25 year old me to be a young lawyer well on his way to becoming a success story, enjoying my work, life and loving every day of it. At 25, I saw the 21 year old me as naive, foolish and somewhat void of logic.
At a young age of 25 I am beginning to feel like I'm losing the game of life.
Shit.
Hello, i know i must be somewhat weird to write a comment out of a sudden..haha..actually i read your post regarding chambering= star wars a few times before this and suddenly had the thought of searching for your blog again. I cant say i was shocked with your current post, well i already predicted life may deviate from our dreams. I am a law student in my final year and actually having my final paper this friday. I just want to tell you that i understand what you were going through. Yes, i havent step into working life whatsoever but even as a student money wealth worried me. I dont know if you will read this, but i want you to have some faith in life. Life is sucks! I know. But maybe writing may keep your sanity. Haha..enjoy your life. I am just concern as a fellow muslim. Salam. Ps: i hope you will get to own a ferrari and live in million dollar home one day! AMIN
ReplyDeleteThank you for the supportive comment haha :D my perspective has changed a little since i posted this entry. Come to think about it....one day..wht i want the most is to live my life that is right by God and religion. Everything else will then fall into place inshaallah. God Bless u. :)
ReplyDelete