Apr 7, 2010

Back when I was a kid

Back when I was a kid I wanted to be the Sultan of Perak.
Back when I was a kid I wanted to be a formula one driver.
Back when I was a kid I wanted to be Kurt Cobain.
Back when I was a kid I wanted to be the richest man alive.
Back when I was a kid I wanted to make a difference.
Back when I was a kid I believed The Beatles when they said All you need is love.

Back when I was a kid, I had this vision of me in the future. I saw me being successful. I saw me being all that I knew I could be. I saw me standing tall above all the shits that life had to offer. I saw me being able to achieve anything and everything that I wanted. But above all, I saw me living my dream life.

But life had other plans. I don't know where I went wrong but somewhere along the way I got a little lost. Everyday I feel like age is catching up with me and that slowly all the dreams that I had are being taken away by a cruel phenomenon known as reality. I find myself trying to hold on desperately to those dreams, knowing full well that those dreams will never ever be realized.

As I near the end of my university life, I realized that what I am today, is nothing what a young me envisioned  an older me to be in the future. I realized that all the dreams I had for me when I was a kid was amounting to nothing more than a puff of smoke. 

Reminiscing about the good old times is something that I love to do. Bitter-sweet memories of my childhood, my teen years and all the dreams that I had.

Back when I was a kid I didn't want to be the person that I am today.

How about you? Is the current you the person you always wanted to be when you were a kid?

7 comments:

  1. How about you? Is the current you the person you always wanted to be when you were a kid?

    -i wanna b a stewardess + model...but...i tumbuh x cukup inci..too bad!

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  2. hahaha.nak jadi sultan perak!!kamu mmg legend!

    aku rasa aku tak penah pikir nak jadi apa time kecik2 dulu.maka dengan itu i am what i am. :}

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  3. gia: haha, bummer, koko crunch, now!! go!!
    shaf:tudiaaaaaaaaaaa haha,x cukup legend,kalau nk tul legend kena berangan jd agonggg

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  4. Hey, you know what? At this stage of your life you can be better than all that you wanted to be in all your childhood dreams. Trust me.

    Being an F1 driver, and Sultan of Perak ain't a bed of roses. And being the richest man alive, too, for that matter! They're all over-rated ;)

    And you STILL can make a difference with what you are today, and what you're gonna be tomorrow.

    Just be yourself, and you'll be happy. THAT is what matters most in life :)

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  5. haha, thnks wanna =) just tht tup tap tup dah im 22 oredi..im getting older too fast and sometimes it freaks me out haha. takut!!! yeah, i guess all wht u said is true...looks like i have some growing up to do.haha

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  6. You know what, Ahmad Patai? You, Abang, Aliaa and Amir will always be kids in my eyes no matter how old you all are...and I mean this, in an endearing way :)

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  7. hahaha, awwww :D yes, we practically grew up with u kan kat uk semua haha =) we'll always act as kids around anyways, sampai today :)

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